The title of this post describes the past week of our lives here in the Curtis household. Coop came down with a runny nose that progressed into an ear infection (again), and I have had the worst cold I've ever had. We've been miserable! Our week included trips to the Dr. for both of us, and lots and lots of tissues. I'm not mentioning all of this just to vent and waste your time. (I promise!) It's just that through all of this the Lord has taught me some pretty major things about myself. You know how sometimes the Holy Spirit will lift the blinders off your eyes and allow you to see yourself for who you really are, and not just what you think you are?? Yeah…it's been one of those weeks. I'll explain.
Our pastor preached a sermon a couple of months ago in which he mentioned how "maturity" in the life of a Christian is not based on knowledge, but on morality. To clarify, to tell how mature of a believer someone is, you look at their actions… not at all the books they've read or the knowledge they posses. This past week I found myself moaning and groaning, rolling in self-pity, and wanting the world to just end. (Mommies with sick babies… you know the feeling.) I'm so thankful for a husband who encourages me and lovingly rebukes me in my sin. I can't even remember his exact comment. It wasn't direct, but it was enough that I knew he could see sin in my heart. Then it happened… The Holy Spirit opened my eyes to my spiritual immaturity. I realized that the winds of suffering were blowing (VERY slightly, might I add), and I was beginning to topple! I began to evaluate my life and found that I have roots that grow very wide, but are very shallow. I've read the books and have taken the classes. I can have the conversations and talk the lingo. But as soon as I get a little sickness, those things are no where to be found and I begin to topple due to lack of depth. It's times like these that I'm made aware of how much I need Jesus. I can't even love Jesus without His help.
I praise the Lord for the humility He is working in my heart. I am faithless at times, but he remains faithful because he cannot deny himself. (2 Tim. 2:13) He indeed teaches His children through their suffering. To all of you who are going through suffering much more significant than a little cold, and are still remaining faithful, Praise the Lord! James said that suffering produces steadfastness that makes us perfect and complete. He is making us like Jesus. Suffering is indeed a grace. Even when we aren't aware of it at times.
Praise to the Lord, the Almighty, the King of creation. Oh my soul praise him for He is my health and salvation.
The Mrs.
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