I tell you what… I'm one LOUSY blogger! As I set up my blog, I remember thinking that I was going to have to talk myself out of posting random things all the time. Instead, I have to make myself blog. I find myself thinking that I cannot post anything unless I've read 10 books on the topic and are well informed on whatever I plan on writing about. Then I remember that this isn't a research paper--it's a blog! So, with that said… I'll catch everyone up to speed on where we are as the Curtis Family. The Mr. is taking three classes this semester, so he stays super busy. He's taking Intro to Biblical Counseling, Methods of Biblical Counseling, and Religion in the Public Square. They're all super practical and have helped us both. I have been busy at home. I always said that "stay-at-home moms" were important and that being one had to be a hard job, but I didn't believe it until I was one! There is ALWAYS something to be done. This past week, I had a dear friend visit us for a few days. She was visiting Boyce and stayed with us while she was here. She got here Tuesday night. Tuesday morning, Cooper woke up with a stuffy nose. No biggie… he's had several since he was born. I knew the routine: fill 'em with saline, suck 'em out, prop 'em up, and he'd be good to go. He seemed to have gotten better the next day. However, later during the week he started acting like a crazy baby! He cried and cried. He wouldn't nap, he wouldn't let me rock him, and he wasn't eating well. I, along with the Mr., thought that he was just growing into this "bad boy" phase. Then it clicked. He has an ear infection! Duh.. all the signs were painted in the sky and I was looking at the dirt. We called and got him into the Dr. the next day to find out that he didn't have an ear infection…he had a DOUBLE ear infection. Poor guy. He's having to deal with him mommy and daddy learning how to raise and care for him.
The reason I named this Blog entry "positional Grace" is because after this tough week/weekend, I found myself tired, bitter, lazy, and full of self pity. These things led to neglect of the Word, neglect of prayer, and an avoiding heart. Which, in turn, led to guilt and self condemnation. Many of you know the drill. It's as if I view my initial sin as the first plunge of the shovel into the ground. I feel that if I catch it fast, I can patch up the hole and put the dirt back in--no harm done. But if I neglect it and sin more, digging a deeper hole, I get discouraged thinking about how much "work" it will take to cover the hole back up. So, I quit. I lay around keeping extra busy so I won't have to pray and do the "dirty work" in my heart. BUT…(that's a powerful three letter word!) the Holy Spirit has been so gracious in reminding me that my standing with God is not based on my performance! I can never re-fill the hole in my life. In fact, my life is one big hole! Christ, through his sacrifice on the cross, is the only way I can ever be right with God again. Jesus not only suffered the wrath for the sins we were aware of at our salvation, he suffered for ALL of our sin. He holds us. I am in Christ. He takes my self pity and laziness and gives me righteousness. Praise God! As Lecrae has said, "Salvation ain't a feelin', homie it's a position." I am not standing at the bottom of a deep hole looking up wondering if God is there. Jesus has filled my hole. Forever.
"There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life has set you free in Jesus Christ from the law of sin and death. for God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do. By sending his own son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin, he condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the spirit. " Romans 8:1-4
Praise the Lord!
-The Mrs.
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